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[obviously, i don't have time to continue this. if the original owner wants to take the journal back or give it to someone else, i am down with that. i'm sorry, i promised to be active, but after sherri deleted there really wasn't so much of a reason.]
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| the beginning and end of time |
[18 Oct 2004|02:28am] |
i won't apologize this time, i will just break down life since the last one:
you still get scraped knees but i remember when it was a concern even if there was a scratch with a bruise. you never lost that grace that came along with getting right back up and skipping rope or racing your older sisters. you've grown with more elegance in sixteen years than many achieve in a lifetime, and on your birthday i was proud to sing to you even if its one of the things i can't bring myself to do most of the time.
until next time.
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[19 Sep 2004|06:05am] |
a few nights ago, we were playing in nyc. after the show, dad and i met up with a few fans at a pizza place a few blocks from the venue. he was so tired that he fell asleep right on the table and i just let him lay there until closing time, after the fans had left, when the management was kicking me out. he works so hard for us, to make sure that we get what's best. to top that off, he even organizes our message boards, our website, our mp3s. he manages us and manages our tours, he's our roadie, our van driver, and he's our dad to top it all off. not just a dad to weston, sherri, stacy, and i but to christie and collin as well. he is a great husband to our mother and an amazing grandfather to kayla. i wonder how he does it all. he wears so many hats and wears them so well. he deserved that little nap on the table and he deserves a lot more than that. if anyone deserves a vacation, my dad does. i think he takes this time out on the road harder than the rest of us do. especially now, after mom's been recovering and christie and collin are going through so many changes. no one has parents like mine and i'm very proud to be a part of this family.
kayla's been staying with a friend of mine while we tour. she calls twice a day and updates me on everything from what happened on dora the explorer to what letter she's on in her alphabet. she's so smart, sometimes it is hard for me to believe that she's my daughter. it's hard for a lot of people to believe, actually. but i'm not complaining. she's a total blessing.
the snow patrol guys have been really friendly. they always make an effort to start conversation, invite us out before and after shows, and tell us stories about their families in ireland. the crowds have varied from astounding to atrocious. for example, the other night in toronto we encountered a few rude fans who upset sherri and stacy a little. i shrug it off and maybe it's easier for me to do that since i'm not out front like they are. i hardly talk, never sing, and try my best to have a little fun on my corner of the stage. it was a good show aside from the few obnoxious fans and i'd hate to let those few taint all the other fans that come out and make the show worth playing.
so all in all, things are going really well right now. the road's good, i miss tyler more than just a little, but i'm having fun. i hope you're all doing well.
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[14 Sep 2004|02:18am] |
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it is a lot of fun to play live shows, but intense heat is something i can do without. this is going to be horribly short because i don't have much to say. we are in boston tonight, and we are playing in new york tomorrow. i can't wait to perform there because it makes sherri really happy to see john and there are some good friends we have made which have helped us out a lot getting through the initial nobody stage.
everyone out here is really nice and snow patrol is amazing, so even if people don't want to bother checking out our band, i don't mind if you just come to see them. there is another update in the works, i have just been very busy as you can imagine. i feel bad for having to apologize for fading into obscurity as far as livejournal goes, because it seems like i am trying to keep myself from hitting five weeks.
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[23 Aug 2004|01:18pm] |
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I'm a sucker for good piano. I like soft voices with a lot of emotion and songs that keep my attention until the last strains. There are some songs that I can just sit back and not think about anything else but music. Sometimes I will only like one song by a particular person but one song will hit the mark so well that I begin an end a short musing talking about it. I could go on with a psuedo-emo description on what this song does to me, but there's no point to that. It might not be so dead on with others.
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[17 Aug 2004|08:24am] |
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I banned you from commenting in my journal. There is such thing as overkill and I'd say after the first week you had that line far crossed. I'm not even the original owner of this and it's highly aggravating that I have to put up with it and without even having a clue why.
Four-year-olds do not get livejournals.
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[16 Aug 2004|05:19am] |
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last night, i went to that party the community had. i'm not really used to talking to so many people at one time, so i stayed quiet and watched everyone, which is what i do best. of course, i should have expected my friends to get me involved and being a wallflower is definitely not easy around here. elisha cuthbert grabbed my arm and dragged me over to introduce me to chris carrabba and dan estrin, and all three of them agreed that it was difficult to hear over the noise. elisha went to talk to other people because she seems to know about everyone, and i don't really know what happened to dan. chris and i finally got to talking so we could hear each other, and we got started on politics which put us both into a rant, but we came to the same conclusions. i will discuss politics in a private conversation, but a public forum is a good place to get a flame war started and that's not what i want to accomplish here.
so, i told him how and when we started writing songs together, with our excess free time, and that got us into talking about what we used to wear, and that got us into starting a band called "When We Were Seven!" where we used songs we wrote in the good ol' playground days. it took me until the end of the conversation to realize i talked to chris freakin' carrabba, and then i might have giggled. it's nice to know there are decent people out there.
we're all concerned for jon right now. he wants to keep working, but we're pushing for his speedy recovery and i doubt spending hours in the studio would help. if we don't have him for the next tour, it won't be right. i don't even think we'd do well with a stand-in. we'd train christie, but she has her broken arm, and our best bet is colin. weston's pushing for jessie. in all seriousness, i don't know how that's going to turn out, so jon's getting plenty of rest, and plenty of fluids.
i was going to say something else about kayla, but that's for another time.
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| Chauntelle, Sherri, Weston, Stacy, Christie, Colin, Kayla |
[13 Aug 2004|01:07am] |
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Yesterday, I spent a lot of time with Kayla in my lap people watching. Usually that puts me in a position to be very judgemental, but things just seemed to slow down for me and i took note of all the details. Christie kept her arm close to her body when anyone walked within a yard of her, as if they were going to break it again. Sherri seemed to be the only one going full speed, going from conversation to conversation, making sure the weather was an interesting topic. Weston and Jessie sat in two fold out chairs half the time, holding their hands between them, her ankle crossing his. He would look at her and smile while she'd bite her lip and keep her eyes in her lap, smiling all the same. Stacy spent a lot of time near Colin, making sure he didn't direct his friends into one of the tables that carried punch bowls or the big cake.
Mom was so beautiful; I don't even see a difference in my mother from her wedding photo twenty-five years ago to the woman she is now. Dad was looking at her much in the same way that Weston looks at Jessie. Love keeps you youn and beautiful, no matter what ordeals you've been put through. It's almost trite to hear that coming from me, even though it's obvious that that sort of love is no different from what I share with my daughter. I watched her closely too, and saw parts of me in her expression. She seemed to be paying close attention to the same things I was, and I don't know if she was doing it because she'd seen me doing it, or if she really recognized how perfect everything was. Children are so forgiving and innocent because their minds aren't yet filled with the horrible realities that adults have faced. I envied her, then, because I would sometimes like to be as forgiving, when grudges only last a few minutes after saying no to the extended bedtime or the extra cookie before dinner.
Someday, I think I will find the bond that my mother and father have. Now, the extra variable makes it a little difficult for me to let any man into Kayla's life because I'm more worried about they way he is with children than he is with me. She needs a father figure in her life and it's hard because people my age are still looking for low-maintenance girls that don't have the baggage. I can't let just anyone charm me into his life before making sure that Kayla won't be brushed aside, and sometimes I meet wonderful men that just wouldn't cut it as fathers. In a way, I'm lucky to have the ability to see these things right away because some women get so swept up in love and later find out that they have good lovers, but they don't have adequate fathers. A man that isn't good with children just doesn't seem to hold the compassion to keep longevity. My parents are the perfect example.
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today is our parents' 25th wedding anniversary and we are celebrating hardcore. of course, christie deleted so we all have a reason to mourn over that. where is weston?
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[10 Jul 2004|05:23pm] |
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it's already been a month since i've had the chance to write. of course i have to balance priorities, and we have a break right now but otherwise i've been in the studio with my family and i've also got mom duties to be taken care of before i get the chance to sit down and have a chance to collect myself.
my siblings are all growing up. it's kind of interesting to watch them all do different things and it's kind of like watching a movie with several different endings for me, since i missed out on several of those things. however, if i didn't have my family i'd have a lot less time to do what i'm doing now, and i thank god every day for the chances i've been giving. they're the best support system anyone could ask for. i'm sure i've talked about this before, but it's more apparent now with them all on break visiting different people, and me, spending time with kayla. she is a treasure that i wouldn't trade any other ending for. this is what i was meant to do.
happy birthday jesse.
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today i took nora out to dunkin donuts to buy her a cappuccino blast. we sat outside there for hours just talking about how wonderful dunkin donuts is and that if i ever got a tattoo, it would be of the dunkin donuts logo. she let me serenade her with that ashlee simpson song that she likes so much. i made her pay for them because she hung up on me yesterday when i started talking about Jesus. how rude, she still shines and i love her anyway. one of her movies is on one of the many cinemaxes tonight. it's the one with that skinny girl from the o.c. and people at the party snort cocaine off of silver platters. i am so in love. i'm not sure why i'm updating two days in a row. usually i update once and then wait six weeks and somehow come up with something to make sure i am not overrided. i just felt like updating without somebody yelling at me even though this is awful, i just wanted to talk about how much i am in love with nora.
Googlism for: chauntelle dupree
chauntelle dupree is the picture of maturing girlhood; her porcelain skin is smooth and clear
i really like the new dashboard song and i miss weston.
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[08 Jun 2004|10:15pm] |
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have i ever mentioned how much you people make my life difficult when you delete? i don't have much to say considering i haven't caught potter fever as severely as my sisters have. all i have to say is nora zehetner is super cute and if that isn't a good enough reason for you to add her, i am not sure what is.
ps WHY is manifer married
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[27 Apr 2004|05:40pm] |
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[24 Apr 2004|05:38pm] |
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i think i am due for an update. not being around much really has it's downsides. mostly it's just removing annoying people who have deleted and adding more people. i will get around to doing that sometime soon, i am feeling lazy. this morning i was a little late in watching swept away but i still watched the rest of it anyway. it's that movie with madonna where she is stuck on a desert island with an italian guy. i don't know why people think it is so bad. alright, so it was pretty stupid at times but it wasn't that awful. it was predictable, they hate each other and then they are in love with each other. the guy slaps and kicks madonna around a lot and in the end, he throws the ring into the ocean and it's kind of like titanic. we have a few shows this weekend and we have fourteen people crammed into one van. it's pretty uncomfortable. we've been pretty busy this week that i haven't even had time to get my hair cut. i was thinking copying sherri's haircut and color, just kidding. i like it on sherri but i don't think i would like it on me. i have no idea what else to say, do not yell at me because this update is horrible.
ps that guy on e! said the new jennifer lopez and marc anthony nickname is manifer, how awful is that? that is mostly for paris, though i bet she already knows
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[29 Mar 2004|12:23pm] |
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| hi jessie |
[25 Mar 2004|11:59am] |
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i don't post one line, i usually post at least five but i will try my hardest to make a long post for sherri. i am so anti-social it's ridiculous and i cannot seem to figure out how to be any other way. i will talk to new people for about two days but then one or both of us just stops and that's the end of that. plus i never get on aim and i guess it's hard to be "social" when you're never on aim. my left shoulder hurts so bad that i can hardly move and i have no idea what i did to it, it just randomly started hurting. actually it's making typing hurt way too bad so sorry sherri i cannot finish this post and make it extra long but i love you and i do not play favourites, i just pretend. i love you i love you i love you.
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[22 Mar 2004|02:41pm] |
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i heard poor mel gibson has been blacklisted and directors refuse to ever work with him again. i guess if my movies never made 154 million dollars in one weekend i would be a little bitter too! i hate the sound of a phone ringing, i cannot stand it. i think phones are pointless anyway unless you need them in case of an emergency and people take speaking face to face for granted. i have nothing to say besides i wish, well no, never mind i don't want to make anyone mad. i love weston, i miss jamison and i want to marry avril even though 8734981274 other people do too.
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[16 Mar 2004|02:54pm] |
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[09 Mar 2004|06:46pm] |
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i am obsessed with better than ezra, especially when it's acoustic but then again who doesn't like anything acoustic better? i sat outside all day with tbs in my headphones and some lemonade and just took the time to take in and appreciate everything around me and for once i felt comfortable and more at home than i ever had. stacy got these tweety bird things and they are like tater skins or something only more strange and they are so delicious. sherri keeps hiding in her room and sending me poems to my phone while stacy plays the piano into all hours of the night and everything just feels so good right now. i am tired of being so boring though someone help me and take me out or something, i don't know.
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[02 Mar 2004|10:27pm] |
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hi i have nothing new or exciting to talk about besides maybe that i am in mustbepop now, is that supposed to be exciting? i think that just means that i am creepy in a legit sense, which must be a good thing. sometime last month i checked five books out from the local library and i have not managed to finish one, i feel awful for not only not reading these books when i had the chance but for taking away the chance for other people to read them since i had them sitting on my floor while other people could have been enjoying them. other than that i have nothing to share, i don't talk to any of you so i have no names to drop and i haven't recently discovered any fantastic music so i have no trends to start. i still love my family, i have an awful headache, there is no more oatmeal and i want to see peter pan. this post is fairly short so i don't feel as boring as usual.
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